Wednesday, November 2

> ramblings, mumblings, grumblings.

Ive never come across anyone bitchier than you are. My gawd, are you really such a bitch or are you just full of green? Dont you have any faith and trust in the things you do or the things you possess? Is it him that you dont trust, or is it yourself that you have no faith in? For Christ's sake, stop the jealousy shite or possessive actions, its making me sick.

Gosh, i cant believe it. Thinking back, was that a compliment or was it an insult? I'll take it as a compliment baby. Yeah, what can i say? Dont you girls just hate me?

Im not a happy bunny today. I was practically yearning for a miracle but all end with a disappointment. I feel so dumb suddenly. I might be the joke of the century again. Yeah, time after time, i feel like a joker. Being the item to be laughed at. How funny heh.

Is it true that girls loves jerks? Geez. I really hate jerks, i really do. Then again, im not so sure about it. But jerks do change too right? Like once they fall for a girl really deeply, they wont be a jerk again yes? But then again, a leopard can never change its spot. But but but.. Oh damn, to hell with that.

Okay, this is getting random. Im working everyday this week except for the weekends so im kinda jaded of living. Pardon me. Im so so so tired and i havent been sleeping well. I almost cried to sleep last night because i was feeling so down, so moody, so empty. I just needed someone to talk to, someone to smoke with, someone to cheer me up whether or not their words are words of wisdom or simply nonsense. But, i went to bed, cold and lonely, like a dying bunny. Its so hard for anyone to comprehend how i feel. Its even harder to make me smile. But yet, i found another who is able to make me smile and laugh at all his silly words when i was fuming mad. Then again, wasnt he the one that made me cry? Well yes, so stop thinking about the past. Its over.

Period. Stop the emo thingy, its pissing me off.

Im a strong girl what, who cares about such emotions? I'll get over it. When school starts, i'll be drowning myself with my studies, dance and work. I dont have any leisure time to start thinking of the past or present, not even the future. I have no time to feel emo. Yay!

Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, im gonna eat some worms. booooooooo
Hated by many, loved by few.

why arh?

sealed-with-a-kiss < 11:42:00 pm

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